Worthless and Weak

Guess who's not a teenager. Me, thats who! Yesterday, I turned 20. I celebrated by going to work and then having my family give me cake and gifts and sing to me. That lasted about 15 minutes.

However, today me, and three friends, went hiking. A little-known trail in the white mountains, Jennings Peak. There are 4 reasons why this is a great mountain.

1. Not well known. It won't be a populated as others.

2. Its a loop. That means that theoretically, you won't meet any other people there. Whereas on a linear trail (up and back) you'll meet everyone who was on the trail at the same time as you.

3. Its not too difficult, as even the unexperienced and out of shape of our group did it. So long as your not in bad health, you should be able to climb it.

4. Last, and certainly not the least, there is a ledge on it with a simply spectacular view. We sat on this ledge, ate lunch, and just stayed there for about an hour.

Anyway, a great time was had by all, at least once we got out of the damned car and into nature.

So anyway, I would like to really thank Seth, Melissa, and Brittney for coming, and having a simply wonderful time, and many wonderful stories. And if any of you want to do that again, or anybody else wants to do that, for that matter, just gimme a call. Anyway, I will see you guys later.

Oftentimes, I feel that there is something missing in my life, but I can't quite put my finger on it.

Well, right now, there is something missing. And I know exactly what it is. And how to fix it. I know exactly what I have to do, yet I'm sitting here at the computer, instead of doing it.

I have a talent. Smiling. I can just smile, and make myself happy. I just sit back, and smile, and think nice thoughts, and maybe sing to myself, and, I'm happy. But it doesn't last forever. My optimism is running out, and I can't keep fooling myself into thinking that I'm happy. So I need to fill myself up, to do what needs to be done.

Anyway, I'm sure that you both have no idea what any of this means, and if you did, could care less about it. So, instead I shall talk about Trebla for a bit.



Damn that Trebla! How he has sown his seeds of destruction throughout everything that I hold dear. How is it that he has managed to rearrange all the matter in the entire universe specifically to destroy any ambitions that I might otherwise have had? Why is it, that he chooses me to torment, of all the people in the whole world, he chooses me. Oh, my sorrow!

Anyway, to make a long story short, I am trying desperately to make plans, any plans at all, and they are being eaten and destroyed and basically not working at all. So, the lesson learned, is never ever do anything, under any circumstances at all.

I wondered today what is going inside somebody else's head. So I thought about it, and thought about it, and thought about it, and realized that I had no idea whatsoever. Not only that, but that I didn't even know where to start. Perhaps if I had a good starting place, I might be able to figure something out. Anyway, that started me thinking about things, but, of course, I didn't reach any meaningful conclusions. Oh well. Well, goodnight, see you all tomorrow.

I must apologize for all this lack of updating. La la la la la! Sorry, I have become insane. WWOOOOOO!!!!

I must apologize for that too. You see, what I've been trying to say, is that my routine has been changed now that I am at home, and I have found that it is much harder for me to do things regularly now. And I've found that I can't get any of my thoughts into this here blog. Case in point, I've been sitting here typing this for two hours.

Meiiti-maat!! imajiporkchopimitmoots.

Something is wrong with me. Perhaps if there is a psychiatrist reading this, they might help me. Goodnight.

Sorry about not updating this blog here for a while. I know you have all been dying to know whats going on in my life, whats been happening and so forth. Anyway, I might say a little something, so here goes. Well, Saturday, my computer died. I didn't reformat my hard drive. But I might as well have done that. Because its all gone, everything destroyed, in a great apocolypse. And like a phoenix, my computer will rise from the ashes of magnetic hell.

Since then, I've been looking for a job. Hopefully I'll find one soon. Well, today, I was complaining that there isn't enough stuff about economics on PBS. Because it is really important. And because I like it, dammit. So, I was flipping through channels, 44, 11, boring things. Then, on 2, it was Charlie Rose interviewing nobody other than John Snow, our beloved Treasury Secretary. So I was happy. And that was good.

On another note, I'm really enjoying this baseball season. And by far the most entertaining thing so far has been the slow decline of the Yankees. I wanna see George Steinbrenner go insane and start killing people. But he probably won't. But I won't be suprised if people start getting fired pretty soon. Which will be fun to watch. And, tonight, I think it might have peaked, as the Yankees have just been no-hit by the Houston Astros.

Well, another year comes, another year goes. Damn that went fast. Well, life goes by really fast. Thats what it does. But here we are, and everybody is packing up and moving out, moving on. And it makes me realize how much of a gigantic difference all my friends make in my life.

I'm going to apologize in advance for being incredibly sappy.

Anyway, to all my friends out there, I really want to thank you for making me a part of your life. I really appreciate it. You are the reason I get up in the morning, and you're there for me, and you honestly make my life worth living. All of you do. Brittany, Jon, Melissa, Steffy, Sylvia, Luke, Seth, Ciania, Salim, Todd, Nate, Anna, Keith, Mary, Mickey, and everybody else, I love you. Whether it is watching Anime, playing frisbee, hanging out, playing Vice City or Smash brothers, eating at the cafe or BHOP or wherever, going to Sox games, or just talking online. I don't think I can really put into words what you have meant to me.

Anyway, I always hate doing lists like that, because I know I've missed somebody. So if you're not on that list, its because I'm an idiot, not because you're not special to me. But anyway, if there is one person from that list who should get special attention it has to be Seth. Because Seth puts up with me, and he humors me, and he, believe it or not, makes my life a whole lot better. I'm gonna miss you this summer Seth, and I wish you well with you're jobishness stuff.

If there are two people from the list that deserve further recognition, it is Seth and Luke. Luke, my boy, you've been a great friend, and I will say it right now, you are the best thing to happen to me this year. I'm so glad that we've spent so much time making fun of each other, laughing with each other, playing frisbee or Vice City or whatever with each other, and so I will wish you the best of summers. Can't wait to see you next year.

Anyway, I would really like to have some sort of a phrase that could summerize my entire year. Well, I guess that if I learned one thing, its that you can't live in the past, you've got to move forward. It took me a whole quarter to learn that lesson, and when I did, my life really got an awefully lot better. So peace out, and remember that I love you.

I'd wish you all good luck on your finals, but you're gonna fail them all anyway. Because you're worthless and weak.

Anyway, I'm going to bed, so I can study tomorrow, and do other stuff! Yay other stuff! w00t!!

Ok, see you all tomorrow, have a nice day! :)

I have two friends. Well, I have more than two friends. But of all the friends I have, which number more than two, I shall talk about two of them. I shall also talk about myself and several interactions between the three of us, that is, myself and my two friends. Hmm, it appears that I have fallen in to some sort of trap. You see, I cannot seem to stop introducing this blog entry, and get to the actual story part of the blog. Anyway, you're really not missing out on much, its pretty boring. Hmm, perhaps I shall start over.

I have a friend named Todd. At least, I think thats his name. Anyway, he's into baseball. But I don't really enjoy talking to baseball with him that much. For a couple reasons, and I don't see him that much anyway. Anyway but of all the other friends I have, none of them enjoy talking to me about baseball. With one exception.

And that exception is named Jon. Now, you might think that people should spell John with an h in it. And I would agree with you. But that really has nothing to do with the current subject matter. So anyway, I really enjoy talking about baseball with Jon. I could talk all day long. He's a really cool guy.

So, the world would be happy with me and Jon talking about baseball. Except for one minor technicality. Jon has a friend named Melissa. And Melissa really really likes Jon, and really really doesn't like baseball. So, yesterday, the three of us, and some other random people were eating, and me and Jon were talking about baseball so much, and she started to get quite annoyed. Oh well, I annoy people a lot. So anyway, we were talking about that at dinner tonight again. And I started to get the feeling that Melissa is going to kill me. So I tried really hard to not talk about baseball. But it was tough. For instance, at one point Jon was joking about having a seizure, and I really had to restrain myself from informing him that Tony Lazzeri (if I spelt that right, give me a cookie) was epileptic. Anyway, so, Melissa, if you're reading this, please don't kill me. Kill Jon instead. And Jon, if you're reading this, you might want to think about not eating dinner with me tomorrow night. But anyway, if either of you start taking relationship advice from me, its pretty much over.

Today, Megatron saved the rest of the Transformers. It was awesome, you should have seen it.

Ever like a song, a lot. And then not listen to it for a long time, and then when you do, you don't like it. Something like that happened to me, where I think a person has changed. I'm not sure how this person changed, but for some reason something just feels different. Anyway, it could very easily be that I've changed, or that both of us has changed, but for some reason, I view the world, and one person in particular differently today than I did a while ago. I guess thats called life. Oh well.

Ya know, by just about any objective standard, my life completely sucks, in every way imaginable. Yet I've somehow managed to remain at least partially happy. Does that mean I'm really cool? Or that I'm a happy pessemist! Hoorah for that!