Worthless and Weak

Today I developed a method for determining the effect a change in the final score based upon your current stats and the change in stats based upon a move you make. BORING!!!

When days get nice, and its sunny and warm and I get to walk outside, I just can't help but look at God's hand in everything. Everything is so incredibly beautiful.

Thats what spring does to me. Everything becomes incredibly good. Why, because its sunny and warm out. Anyway, here's to more sunny and warm days. And frisbee and baseball too!!!

I hate homework, I wish I could like, not do it and get a big A. But whatever. Anyway, I worked today, so I'm tired by now. So I'm gonna go to bed soon and then see if I can't get an early start to my day.

Anyway, other than stuff, the only thing that really happened today is my Fantasy Baseball league is starting up. I've got a completely stacked starting rotation. Awesome!!

Anyway, goodnight. See you later.

a week or two ago, I made a decision. It was a good decision, the right decision, but I just feel that I lack the willpower to go through with it. Right now, I'm just filling my head with illusions and idiotic notions and the like. Maybe I should be strong and do exactly what I should do. Or maybe I should learn to live with my life.

Ahh, hope can be such a good thing. It has pulled me through many a difficult time in my life. But it can be so cruel at times. Well, here's to hope, and I hope that I get good hope in my life, not bad hope.

Anyway, goodnight!!

it occured to me that nobody really does anything because they want to. They always just avoid doing things, thus everything they do is simply avoiding other things. Well, I should start doing things. Just not sure what though...

Ever get so fed up at everyone that you want to run in with an AK-47, and just start killing everyone? If so, you should probably seek professional help. I felt that way about my computer today, so, instead of kicking it, I reformatted the hard drive. If I get internet access working, I'll be fine all over, and everything will be good again. Cause thats really the only thing that I really need. Ya know, all the other stuff is just stuff. Anyway, it actually tricked me, because I thought that I was only reformatting a partition, instead of the whole drive which the partition is on. Somebody should have told me that. Anyway, night all, and show that computer who's boss!!!

All right, there has been a lot of talk about the Alex Rodriguez trade and how it now makes the Yankees great. Well, the way I see it, there are two types of trades. One is like the Red Sox trade for Schilling, where we give up minor league or plain young talent with upside for an established player, or just take on a big salary. The other kind would be the A-Rod trade, where you trade a superstar for a superstar. The Yankees lost a great player but got a better one. Are they a better team? Yes. Is this bad news for Red Sox fans? Yes. Is it the end of the world, no. Now, if they got A-rod without giving up a regular player, then it would be time to panic. But its not.

I've noticed that the past five or so entries are really short. Which probably makes them a bit more readable. Ya know, I hate giant blogs, cause I mean, I don't want your frickin life story. Anyway, on to my life story.

"Death to Smoochy" was a very criticized film, as not many people liked it. However, I loved it, thought it was hilarious. Lots of people I know loved it too, not sure if that means its good or bad or whatever. Anyway, I saw "The Lost Skeleton of Cadavra" today. I thought it was wonderful, a great b-movie spoof, funny at many places. So I would highly recommend it, as it is quite funny. Anyway, I'll let you all get back to you lives now. See you later.

God is probably trying to teach me something, but from my perspective it really looks like he's got a cruel sense of ironic humor. Maybe he's just giving me something to laugh at years from now. Anyway, me go to bed now.

You'll never be happier than you let yourself be. There will always be limits on how happy you can be, and I know that I can't really be completely happy right now, but usually the biggest impediment to my happiness is me right now.

Freshman year was awesome. And today was as close to freshman year as I'm gonna get without the use of a time machine. So happy 21st Mickey, and nice seeing everyone from Smith hall freshman year again.

So apparently I have a really deep voice that sounds really mature, like an old person or something, and it scares little girls and stuff. Anyway, I'm off to bed, see you all later.

Hi everybody!! Its me, Thaddeus (or if you prefer, Garrett). I want to know who the hell actually reads this damn blog. So you will, right now, send me an e-mail about this blog. Doesn't matter if you've sent me an e-mail before, you shall send me an e-mail. It doesn't need to say anything, but you will send me an e-mail, dammit!!! or I will kill you!!

Anyway, have a good night, and don't forget to e-mail me.

All I really want is somebody special in my life. Cause I feel like nobody without one.

It has been a while since I felt so good being so uncomfortable. While driving today, my car was hot from being in the sun. Oh, what a wonderful wonderful thing that is, because it was sunny and warm and generally speaking a wonderful day. And I cannot complain.

So today, I was in the library, signed on to AIM. (my screen name is "ThadeusMcMonster" in case you were wondering). Anyway, and every so often I check my friends away messages. Anyway, I checked Brittany's, and it said "In the library, typing a paper." And so I was like, I wonder if she's in this lab. So I looked up, and there she was just about to sit down. So I waved and then we talked for a second, and then she got to work on her paper. Anyway, I thought it was weird that as soon as I checked her away message, I saw her, and because nothing else really happened today.

Everybody knows that the greatest website in the world is www.zombo.com. Nothing before or since has ever come close to it, and nothing ever will. But if you were looking for the second greatest website, you might try here.

Lets say that, in football, you had a period of years were there didn't seem to be any dominant team. Superbowl teams of one year could be bad teams the next year, likewise laughably bad teams one year could be good teams the following year. But, most importantly, there isn't any one team that can be considered great, nor has there been for some time. Now, lets say that you have a team that won the whole thing two years ago, and that put together perhaps the second greatest regular season of all time. Going 14-2, winning their last 12 games. Now lets say that they get to the superbowl, the clear favorite against an underdog opponent. Now, the actual game is great, described as perhaps the greatest superbowl ever. Each team was in it till the very end, when finally the favorite wins by a field goal with mere seconds remaining on the clock.

That was football at its greatest. It doesn't get much better than that. Yet it was overshadowed by the frickin halftime show. I know that if the "media" wants to go and talk about that all day long, well, they will. But isn't there something just fundamentally wrong when a stupid stunt can just tower over the game like that.

So I get to work, and I haven't been there for five minutes when I cut myself throwing a bag of trash into the trash been. Its a really deep albeit small cut, and I had to have it looked at by the nurses, and I might have to recieve a tetnus shot soon. Anyway, that really sucked. And work also sucked a lot in other ways. Like, my boss just walked out half an hour before we were done. Really kinda pissed me off.

Anyway, I'm off to bed now, see you later!

That wasn't nearly as hard as I thought it would be. But, it was the smart thing to do. I mean, I'm beat, I'm done for. Victory is impossible. So I just gotta walk away, and go on to the next fight. It certainly is tough, and sad, and I really really wish that things, could be different, but I'm just gonna have to accept my fate, and get on with my life.

But I'm never ever gonna be able to enjoy Lost in Translation ever again.

PrissSekiria: you know what
PrissSekiria: you're like a girl

and therin, lies the problem, perhaps. If I was a man, I would just fuck her till she loved me, right?

Anyway, I'm just feeling worthless and weak right now, and on top of that emotionally drained. And I think that I have determined that I need to stop doing this to myself real soon. Cause I just can't live like this.

Anyway, good night all, see you guys later.

Sign seen a patriots celebration:

"Janet Jackson +
Warren Sapp

Exposed Boobs"

So, today during class, my professor was talking about how sometimes investments yield lower, ummm, yields than you would expect them to. For instance, he says that public projects built in corrupt countries are very inefficient. He lists sub-saharan countries as examples, then mentions southern Italy, as it has a large mafia influence. Now, he also has a tendency to say a sentence, and then expect the students to finish it. For instance talking about construction projects in Southern Italy, he said, "Now, it won't do the Italians any good if they build roads, but the roads go-" and then expects the students to say "nowhere."

Anyway, so, one of his sentences was, "They will build really nice beautiful ports, but it won't do them any good if the ports are-" and the word he was looking for was "empty." But one kid in the front shouted out, "landlocked." I thought it was hilarious. Anyway, goodnight.