Worthless and Weak

First of all, if you haven't read yesterday's questionaire, please do so, and respond to me. Since 100% of the responses I've recieved said that I should update every night, I'm going to try and do that. However, I've been trying to write for about 15 minutes now, and can't get more than a sentence out about things that I've spent all day thinking about, so I apologize if there isn't enough good things to read here. Thanks.

Now, I don't want to use this blog to complain about how pitiful my life is, because I'm sure that you don't want to hear about it, and there is nothing more useless than feeling sorry for yourself. But I'm going to do so anyway. Now, for those of you who aren't part of the intergalactic conspiracy for conquest (ICC), you might not know that our current goal is ultimate victory. Now, you may not know what we mean by ultimate victory, which is ok, because you aren't supposed to know. But, like all things, Ultimate victory is much easier on paper than in real life. We had it all planned out, all we need is an opening, an opportunity. Based on my experience, I felt that the opportunity would present itself shortly after I've moved to Boston. And, in the worst case scenario, it would take a little while, and then I could choose whatever time I wanted it to proceed at.

But alas, it didn't work that way. The opening hasn't happened yet, and it looks doubtful for some time to come. And so here I am, spending all my time planning for an event which I have know idea when it will happen. I recognize the problem now, that there is a rythem to the universe, one which changes from time to time. And its changed on me, and is still in the process of changing, the rythem isn't set yet. Foolishly, I assumed that the rythem would be the same as it was in May, and so now, once the rythem restablishes itself, as whatever it may be, and I have my finger on its pulse, then I can continue with my ultimate victory. And one last thing, I know that the rythem must change, that it can't beat the same song for too long. I don't like it, but I'd be a fool to think that I can change it. But it may be my greatest advantage, and perhaps ultimately the cause of my defeat. But whatever happens, I am totally committed to the ultimate conquest, and I simply won't walk away from it. I will stand in either victory or defeat. I may need to be patient, and I may need to be determined, and I may need to grasp the first opportunity the moment it shows itself. But I can, and I will, do all those things.