Worthless and Weak

Seth Burton is a the best imaginary friend I've ever had. We can do all sorts of cool things together, and talk a lot and stuff. But when he starts talking to other people, its kinda weird, because ya know, he's my imaginary friend. Anyway, we've been trying to figure out mystery number 2. I've kinda got mystery number 1 figured out, three was explained to me in great detail, and 4, well, we'll just have to see about that. But mystery number 2, there's something. Anyway, its Thanksgiving, so I'll probably be back later tonight with the list of things that I'm thankful for. So Happy Turkey Day.

Ummm, it occured to me that I should update this thingy. Basically, the world is kinda screwed up until the week after thanksgiving, so I don't even want to think about things until then, because if I do, then I'll just get depressed. However, once we reach that point in time, I'm gonna start dealing with things. And then, well, wish me luck.

Garrett was a smart boy,
Christmas shopping, he did a bit;
but now he has that special toy,
he has no place to store it!

Gah, I feel bad. Or rather I should feel bad. I'm doing the complete opposite of what my philosophy tells me to do, and then I'm being a jerk about it. So, should the issue come up again, I should really try living my philosophy from the beggining, (which, coincidentally, is being a jerk about everything).

Anyway, sleep tight.

If I was to tell you the 3 happiest moments of my life, they would all have several things in common. Chief amoung them, is that in all three of them, I felt genuinely and completely loved. In two of the times I knew that somebody loved me, and the third time (and best) time, that I made a difference in somebody's life, and they loved me because of that.

Well, I just want to have that feeling again. To be loved. And, when I realize that I'm not, it can be kinda painful at times. Oh well, goodnight everyone

First of all, Matrix Revolutions was, ummmm, not very Revolutionairy. I thought the ending was very disapointing, and it didn't really tie any loose ends up. And if you have any knowledge of game theory whatsoever, it kind of ruins the movie.

Ya know, I was thinking about it, and it occured to me that people confined to wheelchairs never have to look for a place to sit. But then, I was thinking about it a little more, and I realized that they always have to find a place to sit. Well, at least they don't have to find a place to park.

Ummm, I really hope that my life improves very very rapidly. It probably won't, but, ya know that you have to try.

Ever have a day, when you only have one thing to do an evening, and when the day is over you didn't do it? Thats pretty much my life. And my evening.

Seth A Burton, you are a wonderful human being. Anyway, I was certain that I was going to have a really bad friday night, but then everything turned around, and it turned out quite nice. So, I had dinner and saw a movie with Seth. Whoever said that distance is good for a friendship was correct, not living with Seth definately makes him a better person.

So, ummmm, I'm starting my Christmas shopping right now. This, I'm sure, is a record for me. Well, goodnight!!

Oh, and my grand experiment is going ok, it looks like I might alternate between the first and the third option.

Day one of my great experiment. I cannot tell you exactly what it is that I'm experimenting with, but the results of which will be the deciding factor of perhaps the most important decision I, (or anyone else, for that matter) will ever make. Hmmm, let me explain this a bit.

I must start off with Fredrick Hegel, and his theory. He theorized that there is the "thesis," or the thing that is. Its opposite is called the "Antithesis". They will merge to create a "synthesis," which then becomes the new "thesis." Here's what his good friend Karl Marx theorized.

Theis (Bourgouis Capitalism) + Antithesis (Worker Oppression) = Synthesis (Communism). See!

Anyway, my great experiment is trying to merge to things that have been dymetrically opposed for ages and ages. Now, it should be noted that I was not the first person to try synthesizing these to things, nor will I be the last, but I am in fact intrigued with the idea.

In any case, day one of the great experiment, and the results were mixed. It didn't exactly merge the best of both worlds, but I think it might be better than either of the two previous options. Oh well, here's to another day of experimentation and scienficial researchity!!!

The worst feeling I've ever had, the worst feeling I think I can ever have, is knowing that a friend is in pain, and there is nothing that I can do for him or her. Well, I'm there right now, and I wish that there is something that I can do, but alas, I am helpless. So, all that I'm doing is just telling him that I'm here for him, and that I'll do anything I can for him.

Anyway, on to other topics. Anybody here know about Heisenburg's uncertanty principle? It says that you cannot know the exact position and velocity of an object. Well, there is something that applies to my life right now. There is something that I really want to know, but the only way I can figure it out is if I go into a situation where I would use this knowledge. Actually, its more like a catch-22 than the uncertainty principle, but who cares.

Anyway, if you think you know what it is that I want to know, just tell me, if not, then goodnight.

Friday night was really fun, I just wish that more people were there.

Anyway, I was reminded again how much life can suck. Well, there really isn't much I can do about it. I just have to remember that time does indeed heal all wounds.

I wish I had other stuff to say too, but i really don't. Maybe I'll write more tomorrow. Anyway, goodnight.

I had something profound to say here, but I completely forget what it was. Of course, the last time this happened, it ended up being something about Ricky Riccardo or something.

This blog is slightly pointless. I've never actually revealed anything about myself. I haven't, well, because if I dont' want anybody reading this to actually figure out anything about me, ya know, if I have something to say anybody, I will say it to them in person. But anyway, I've got a terrific story that I want to tell you, that I want to tell you, (you know who you are, I think). But anyway, maybe if you're a random person, and you IM (garylogn) me or something, I might just tell you.

Furthermore, there was something specific I wanted to do, but it looks like I can't. Oh well, there is always tomorrow. Goodnight

Where the hell is my sunshine, dammit!?!?!!!

What? Illinois???

Oh well