Worthless and Weak

Can I ever say to you what I really think of you? I'd love to, but I'm not sure if I ever can. Now, you might even be reading this, but you have no idea who you are, (at least I think you don't, but I'm not talking about the person who you think I'm talking about).

Anyway, now to talk about the person you thought I was talking about.

So for a longest time I wanted a girlfriend. Thats all I wanted really. I told myself that I didn't want one sometimes, but I always did. And I always got rejected. Sometimes I knew that I shouldn't even ask her. Sometimes I asked her and got rejected. Sometimes she did it painfully, sometimes she did it subtlely, but she always rejected me. There are certain qualities that I think women "say" that they want in a man. Honesty, gentlemanliness (or whatever the word is) respect, kindness, etc. Anyway, I was all those things, and every woman just seemed to want jerks who don't seem to care about them. (ummm, don't take that personally if you rejected me, you're probably not dating a jerk, thats just what it seemed like). Anyway, I just kinda feel like I took the straight and narrow path, and stuck to my guns, and did what I thought was right, and it got me nothing ever.

So I kinda became bitter.

Which is why one day, a girl came into my life, who admired me for who I was, and for all the things that I thought I should be, (kind, honest, etc). Which makes me really really really happy, because its like I've tried so hard for so long to do something and now I've won, and I've won BIG time. She's absolutely everything I've wanted, funny, happy, nice, genuinely cares about others, and has a smile the size of the grand canyon. And I just feel as if God has answered my patience with what I've been looking for, that he's answered a thousand prayers of mine.

Anyway, I promise that I'll eventually something here that isn't about Priss. But probably not for a while. :P