Worthless and Weak

You're all worthless and weak!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

 
So, the other day, I read through the archives of this very blog!

And it was kind of depressing. Because it seems like I haven't changed at all in the past 4 and a half years. A little, but it seems like I'm in the same position, like I haven't moved forward.

So a while ago, AOL instant messenger upgraded or something, and when I installed it, it didn't work. So I didn't bother to get it fixed. And didn't use it for probably 2 years.

Anyway, the other day, somebody wanted to talk with me over AIM, so I installed it (the new version worked on my comp).

And today (which is where I'm going with this story), I started talking to somebody who I haven't spoken to since she graduated college.

And, (not to be too judgmental) it kinda seems like the same thing with her. A few of my friends, it seems, have grown a lot since college. Some are just getting started with their careers. Some are chasing their dreams, in a manner which I'm not really sure I could do. And some, seem to be like me, doing their thing, but not seeming to really be moving forward, just getting older, and a little bit richer.

So whats the point. Not entirely sure. I mean half of it is that I'm the same person that I was 5 years ago. And, in many ways, 15 years ago. In some ways, I've changed a lot. I think I'm a much more confident person. I've had significant accomplishments. I'm beginning a career.

But, well, its the same bad habits that I had 5 years ago I still have. I started this blog, basically to complain that I didn't have a girlfriend. When I made the first post here in two years a week and a half ago or so, it was basically a complaint about how I don't have a girlfriend.

So I guess we're all destined to be who we are. We can change what we do, and we should. But, at least for me, when I don't force myself into something better, I find myself doing the same things I've been doing for years. So I guess that means forcing myself to do things.

Cheers!

Garrett

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