Worthless and Weak

Well, I got what I wanted. But, I guess I'm gonna deal with it. See you alls tomorrowws.

I need a job. Night.

The most dreaded words anywhere, from anyone, are, "we need to talk." So, I'm sitting in my room, minding my own business, not bothering nobody. And then comes my mother, and she's like, "Garrett, can you come down for a second. There is something that your father and I wish to discuss with you."

Lets see what we could possibly be discussing. Hmmm, well, they could be telling me that I'm going to get a raise in allowance. Or that they have decided that I need a new sportscar. Or perhaps they are in some way shape or form dissapointed in me. Hmm, that could in fact happen. Perhaps I've been grounded, or whatever. Anyway, so I ponder for a moment what it could possibly be. And so eventually I figure that I had better get over it sooner rather than later. So, downstairs I go, onward to my doom.

I sit down, there are my father and mother. And I say, "ummm, lets get started."

And they begin, "well, the other day, your brother called-" DING!!!!! Suddenly, its no longer about me. Its about that other kid. He's the one in trouble, not me! I'm all set (for now), and now I've got to listen to whatever it is that Mark got himself into. Anyway, after a sense of relief spills over me, I notice something. Mom and Dad are happy. Thus, it isn't even bad news about Mark, its something good.

And then the next line kinda threw me for a loop. It was, and I quote, "you're going to be an uncle."

You're going to be an uncle. Me, Thaddeus Q McMonster, and uncle. So my first thought was "Wow" followed by "Wow!!!" and then "WOW!!!!" Followed by a series of "wows" with the occasional "egad!." Anyway, congradulations and best wishes to him.

First of all, my new e-mail is ThaddeusMcMonster@gmail.com . So when you e-mail me, e-mail me there. I'll still probably check the old one, but send it to my 1337 googlemail account that only 1337 people like me can get.


I wish I went to a renaissance fair instead of working today. And now I've got to work allllll day tomorrow. Oh well, after that, who knows what happens to me. So I will wish you all a fond adieu, as I go to bed so I can work on the morrow.

God loves me. He probably loves you too.

I could just stare at your smile for hours. Its sooo big that you can't fit it all on your face, and spreads on to my face too. And I don't think you really understand just how beautiful you are. And when I look at that smile, I can't help but be amazed at how *I* am the cause of that smile. It just blows my mind that somebody as perfect as you could ever need somebody like me in your life. I just wish I could kiss you right now.

Well, I have to go to bed now, so I'll dream about you!

Four square, nice day, Seth seeing, Bill Killing (part 2), and late night with Priss and Garrett. Can a day get any better?

Good things that happened today, from least goodest to best.

1. I saw Mary!!

2. Really nice day out.

3. I went on the first hike of the year. Combined with number 2, this becomes extra good.

4. The Sox beat the Yankees. Three out of four times this year (so far!!!). This is awesome.

And, finally,

5. I got to talk to Priss tonight. Ohhh, I can't wait till tomorrow when I get to talk to her again!!

Can I ever say to you what I really think of you? I'd love to, but I'm not sure if I ever can. Now, you might even be reading this, but you have no idea who you are, (at least I think you don't, but I'm not talking about the person who you think I'm talking about).

Anyway, now to talk about the person you thought I was talking about.

So for a longest time I wanted a girlfriend. Thats all I wanted really. I told myself that I didn't want one sometimes, but I always did. And I always got rejected. Sometimes I knew that I shouldn't even ask her. Sometimes I asked her and got rejected. Sometimes she did it painfully, sometimes she did it subtlely, but she always rejected me. There are certain qualities that I think women "say" that they want in a man. Honesty, gentlemanliness (or whatever the word is) respect, kindness, etc. Anyway, I was all those things, and every woman just seemed to want jerks who don't seem to care about them. (ummm, don't take that personally if you rejected me, you're probably not dating a jerk, thats just what it seemed like). Anyway, I just kinda feel like I took the straight and narrow path, and stuck to my guns, and did what I thought was right, and it got me nothing ever.

So I kinda became bitter.

Which is why one day, a girl came into my life, who admired me for who I was, and for all the things that I thought I should be, (kind, honest, etc). Which makes me really really really happy, because its like I've tried so hard for so long to do something and now I've won, and I've won BIG time. She's absolutely everything I've wanted, funny, happy, nice, genuinely cares about others, and has a smile the size of the grand canyon. And I just feel as if God has answered my patience with what I've been looking for, that he's answered a thousand prayers of mine.

Anyway, I promise that I'll eventually something here that isn't about Priss. But probably not for a while. :P

Anyway, so I promised you all an explanation of what happened last weekend.

Well, so I meet Priss online, as she tells me that she's gonna be in town for Anime Boston. So friday, I go in, meet her, and we travel around boston. See the aquarium, the constitution, etc etc. Anyway, I leave, can't see her saturday. Sunday, I get off work early, go in to see her to the airport. And as soon as I get in to her hotel, she gives me a giant hug that lasted about 3 minutes. Anyway, we went to the airport, and kissed and stuff, and we really really like each other.

So now she's in a far off land, and I'm not, so I just bought a web-cam, and we use it to communicate. Anyway, the Sox beat the Yanks today, which makes me real happy. And I'm going to bed now, so goodnight!!

And I miss you Priss :)

suffice it to say,

Seth told me a while ago, that I would be a much better friend if I had a girlfriend. It turns out, he's right. Normally, I'd be mad at him for being right, but hey, I'm a better friend now.

Good night, and I miss you Priss!!!!

So I felt like it wasn't me doing that. Like it was a character in a movie or something. (Cause I mean, how much was that like a movie).

So I have no idea what i really did. I felt like I took the first step cause hey- you gotta take risks you know. And it seems that once i took that first step, things just got our of control, and I didn't panic (I should have, I guess).

But whats done is done, and I don't want to simply pretend it never happened. Cause it did, and I wish that stuff would thing, but it can't.

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Anyway, I've got a big test tonight, so I'm gonna go to bed now. Talk to you later.

Gah!!! So many thoughts running through my head. So many things to say and saying to thing and gah!!! I think that maybe I'll actually write about the things that went on this weekend. Maybe Tuesday night. Maybe not. But there are things that I want to say, and although I'd like to say them here, I think I need to say them somewhere else first. Cause I'm not sure what is happening right now.

Alright, how'a'da'bout this? Tomorrow night, I'll give cryptic descriptions of how I'm feeling that you really won't be able to figure out what they mean, and then maybe on Tuesday I'll give the context of all the things, thus enabling you to figure out what I'm going through and stuff.

Well, tonight, its time for bed. Goodnight all!! :)

I went to eat at a legal seafood today, and the wait was so long, that it was quicker just to walk to a different legal seafood, and eat there. (which is what I did).

I saw a medal of honor recipient today.

Alright, my life changes tomorrow. As tomorrow, I will change myself into somebody that I want to be.

Nightish!

Best site ever!!!!

Frisbee today. An actual game. We kept on changing teams to try to make it fair, and mine was the only team that ever scored. Anyway, thats gonna rock.

So ummm, I'm gonna get in shape. I'm gonna do it, for real, this time. Nobody is gonna stop me, nobody!!!! Except that lazy kid, Garrett.

But I'm not Garrett anymore, I'm THADDEUS Q McMONSTER, and Thaddeus Q McMonster gets in shape, dammit.

April fools used to be that cool day when you pulled pranks on all your teachers and stuff, and was generally fun and stuff. Now, with the advent of the internet, it sucks. Cause you have a whole bunch of sites putting up made up stuff, which we have no reason not to believe. Like, somebody says they're moving to India. Why shouldn't I believe that? I mean, people can move to India. But then you're like, "its April 1st, should I just disbelieve them? What should I do?" But if somebody says something truthful, then you don't believe it, and you look like an ass. Stupid thing.

I personally think that Jim Edmonds is the most underrated player in all of baseball.